To Liean..

Grabe..kanina ko lang nalaman na aalis na ang isa sa aking high school best friends (Hiyas + Liean).. Pupunta na silang states at dun na sila titira. I'm really happy for her and for her family..:) Nalulungkot lang ako kasi ang tagal na naming di nagkikita..almost a year na siguro tapos kanina ko lang nalaman na aalis na sya :( Aaaawww naalala ko bigla ung mga high school moments namin..Ung mga kasabawan..mga stroll stroll after class..mga inuman ng Yakult 45 sa bahay ni Hiyas..billiards sa mini-billiards table kina Hiyas..group study sa bahay uli nila Hiyas..bubble-wrap painting sa bahay nina Liean..lunch with Ma'am Yu-Hico at iba pang mga kapatid..at madami pang iba..sobrang nakakamiss :( Grabe mahal na mahal ko si Liean! I'll miss her a lot! Sana makapagkita kita kami bago sya umalis..>.<

God bless! :)

Anger?... Love. :)

haaayyy sobrang nagalit ako for a few days.. :( pero...dapat pagpasensyahan..dapat intindihin..dapat kong isipin na madaming ibang bagay ang masimportante kaysa sa pagwallow sa aking galit..mahal ako ng pamilya ko..mahal ako ng iba kong mga kaibigan..at higit sa lahat mahal ako ni Lord..:) ano pa bang dapat kong hingin..:) sana na lang hindi ko muna sila makita..ayaw naman ako kausapin nung kinagagalitan kong tao kaya dapat ko na lang talaga iaccept na hindi na nya gagawin un..at ipagdadasal ko na lang sya..minsan kasi nakakacomfort magdwell sa galit, sa sakit...pero mali un...dapat magpatawad. Magpatawad ng paulit-ulit kahit na paulit-ulit nila saktan..I'll lay my heart in His hands..:) and there will it find peace..:)

Lord, I'm sorry if I haven't been listening lately..I'm really really sorry..:( pero ngayon sana tuloy tuloy na ung pagtitiwala ko sa Inyo at sa plano Nyo para sa aming lahat..I love you..:)


:)

sobrang salamat nga pala sa aking mga mahal na kaibigan..
Gihan,
Salamat sa pakikinig..:)

Leonard.
Salamat sa mga dasal at sa pagcomfort..:)

Hiyas,
Salamat dahil nakausap uli kita..I love you, Hiyas!! :)

at Buddy,
speechless ako haha :)) soooobrang salamat..:) You've always been there for me..:) sorry kung minsan parang nafifeel kong jinajudge mo ko..Salamat dahil ginaguide mo ako when my mind's clouded by wrong emotions..Salamat sa pagiging pillar when I'm wavering..Salamat. :)


Lord, salamat po sa mga taong to sa buhay ko..:) Salamat po. :)

- tin :)

oo na...alam ko nang b**** ako para sa inyo.. at baka nga oo.. shhheeeeettttt of paper.. I hate everything.

It's Her Birthday! :D

Hey!! :D Birthday ni Mama Mary today!! Yehey!! :D

Mga 8 na ko gumising..:)) well 10 pa naman kasi class ko so okay lang yan haha nakanood pa nga ako nung Bannertail eh :)) ung chipmunk ata un na cartoons sa Q TV hahaha:)) Ayan namiss ko na talaga kasi TV eh haha ang haggard sa school pero keri pa yan :D Nanood pala kami ng dvd ng "My Big Love" kahapon :)) ang saya ahahahaha ang bagay talaga ni Toni at ni Sam :)) so ayun nagenjoy naman ako at narefresh :)) ang labo ko bigla kong siningit ung nangyari kahapon ahahahaha :))

Mga 9:45 dumating ako sa Albert Hall at nakipagdaldalan muna kina Gihan at other blockmates bago magstart ang CWTS :D Nung pumasok na kami sa room ay nakikipagdaldalan pa rin ako kay Gihan at Cecile :)) Kinekwento ko pa naman kay Gihan ang aming experience ni Cecile ng panonood ng Noh (Japanese theatre na ilang hundred years na :D)..ung title The Italian Restaurant..Un ung may mask na parang devil na may weird expression ung main character :D Tapos kahit twisted ung story ay ang ganda ganda pa rin :D One of a kind nga ayon kay Cecile :D At sobrang benta ung waitress!!! =)) nagdadadakdak sya nung mga nasa menu nila na parang mawawalan na sya ng hininga =)) benta forever :)) The play was written and directed by the acclaimed Noh master Noahiko Umewaka.:D

ayan balik tayo sa CWTS class namin haha Tapos! bigla na lang narinig kong may tumatawag sa aking pangalan..un pala mga blockmates ko sa kabilang side ng room at pinakita sakin ung T-shirt ng aking classmate na nakalagay ang letters ng pangalan ng isang taong inaasar nila sakin...:)) syempre tumawa-tawa kaming lahat :D eh kasi ang joke nila eh haha =)) pero hindi ko naman tinatawanan ung taong inaasar nila..bad naman nun hehe :)

Tapos ayun, kwento uli about Noh..at dumating na si Ma'am Zah!! nanood kami ng film about Bioethics in Research..tapos nagkaactivity after na magdidiscuss ng mga questions..at magkakagroup kami nina Cecile, Gihan, Jen, Maget, Neri at Hazel tapos almost pare-parehas naman kami ng mga pananaw sa buhay :)) so hindi kami oa nagdiscuss..at dahil na rin gusto nang kumain ng Banoffee at Vanilla icecream c/o Ma'am Zah as prize sa game namin last week :D Ayan so una kaming nagdiscuss at napasama na rin ako kay Maget =)) tapos ayun sinabi naman namin ung galing sa puso namin :)) kahit parang hindi organized :)) kasi para sakin talaga.. personal choice yun..kung parang may part sayo na ayaw eh baka nga kasi may mali so ikaw responsible sa actions mo :) Siya na ang magjajudge sa ating lahat after :D

Binurn pala ako ni Leonard ng CD ng worship songs..kasi napagusapan namin kahapon..:D At yey! ang saya saya talaga kumanta ng ganito! :D Salamat, Leonard! :D

Ayan tapos PE naman duckpin..at well hindi na naman pasado ang scores =)) Goodluck naman sa duckpin :)) sana makapagmake-up uli kami nina Ben, Gihan at Cecile para medyo tumaas naman :)) Ay!!! kinakantahan pala ako ni Gihan at Cil kanina ng "Pakisabi na lang na mahal ko sya..di na baleng may mahal syang iba..Pakisabing 'wag siyang mag-alala..Di ako umaasa..Alam kong ito'y malabo..hhmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm paki sabi na lang.." Ung hmm part ay dahil hindi na nila alam ang lyrics :)) actually di ko gets bakit yan ung kinakanta nila sakin :)) pero well bahala na :))

Kumain kami sa Mcdo after PE!! Yey! :D at umuwi kami ni cecile after..sina Ben at Gihan bumalik ng UP :D Sorry, Ate Jana wala na naman ako sa chorale kanina..haggard eh pero sana next week pwede na ulit :D

Ayan! tapos umuwi muna ako at mga 6:20 ay umalis na kami papuntang Our Lady of the Annunciation Parish :D Yey mass!! :D Medyo nalate si Father kasi sobrang lakas ng ulan!! at medyo natrap sya sa may Veterans..So nagrosary muna habang hinihintay sya :) Ang galing nga eh kasi at least nakapagoffer kami ng prayer ng rosary ngayong birthday ni Mama Mary kahit hindi planado :D Ayan so pagdating nya kinwento nya na..un nga ang traffic..walang masakyan..pero!! nakarating sya in 25 mins! kahit normally 1 hr ung byahe!! Miracle talaga :D kasi nagdasal sya ng nagdasal kay Mama Mary na sana medyo humina ung ulan para may masakyan sya saka sana medyo lumuwag ung traffic para makaabot sya sa simbahan kahit late na :) eh hindi naman daw super bilis nung taxi parang normal lang pero! ang galing talaga ni Lord!! :D at si Mama Mary talaga ang maawain :) tapos ayun mass na :) At may mga natutunan na naman ako today :D Tapos ang saya saya talaga kumanta sa church! Ang galing din nung choir kanina :D tapos ayun parang nauplift na naman ang aking spirit dahil sa pagdalaw sa simbahan :) sana parati ko pa rin Syang maaalala kahit wala ako sa church :) Andito naman kasi talaga ung challenge sa ating lahat :)

Ay!! may isa pa kong church song na gusto ishare :D nakakainspire din:

saan ako tutungo?
saan pa maghahanap?
hanggang sa dulo ng dagat
walang makikitang tulad Mo

libutin man ang mundong ito
sikapin makamtan ang pangarap ko
ngunit ngayon at kailan pa man
walang makikitang tulad Mo

Ikaw ang buhay
tanging ligaya
munti kong alay
papuri't pagsamba
sa Iyo Jesus
Panginoon
Tagapagligtas
Pag-ibig ng Ama


Ang saya :)

God Bless!! >:D<

Weird Legs

okay..Hi Blog!! ahaha :))

Nagsimba kami kanina at ang fun kasi dun kami nakaupo sa may gilid dun sa malapit sa pianista at choir haha wala lang naaliw ako kasi bagong view :)) Ayan so ang saya saya ng mass :D At marami na naman akong natutunan at naremind na naman ako sa mga dapat kong gawin hehe at meron akong natutunang bagong church songs na nakakainspire talaga hehe :

Sa 'Yong Piling

Tinawag mo ako, O Panginoon,
dagli akong tumugon sa tinig Mo.
Tanda ng pasasalamat sa pag-ibig Mo
na sa tuwina'y nadarama ko.

Ako'y namangha sa 'Yong kabutihan
Tunay na wala Kang katulad

Sa bawat sandali ng aking buhay, Ikaw ang siyang gabay
Sa oras ng lungkot, pagkabigo, ako'y muling binubuo.
Luha ko't pasakit ay Iyong pinaparam.
Sa paglubog nitong araw, sa pagsapit ng dilim
Ang tangi kong hiling ay humimlay sa 'Yong piling.

Labis ang galak ko Panginoon,
'pagkat Ikaw lamang sa buhay ko.
Kagandahang loob Mo ay walang hanggan,
ligayang lubos kailanman.

Katapatan Mo ay di magmamaliw
Kailanpama'y siyang aking sandigan.

hindi ko pa alam kung sino ung gumawa nung song eh ieedit ko to next time.. :D

After magmass ay nagSM kami at sinamahan bumili ng panreglao sa officemates nya ung ate ko :D Bumili sya ng stuff from Blue Magid tapos kumain kami sa Tokyo! Tokyo! :)) Wala lang may naaalala talaga ko dun :)) Anyway, ang dami kong nakain :)) hindi kayo maniniwala pero ako ung pinakamadaming nakain samin ahahahah :))

Bumili rin kami ng mga blouse at make-up stuff ng mga ate ko haha :)) medyo meron akong nakitang cute na long shorts :)) pero sabi ng ate ko ay hindi daw un bagay kasi parang may band..sabi rin ni mama..so hindi ko nagets :)) tapos un pala kasi may space ung legs ko kapag nakatayo ako as in hindi ko mapagdikit ung knees ko :)) un pala dahil nga SAKANG ako :)) so tinry ko naman maglakad ng straight line pero well nakakapagod :)) at nung nasa taxi na kami pauwi ay nagdecide ako na hindi ko na sya babaguhin ahaha ako si Tin dahil na rin sakang ako..whuuuttt ahahahaha =))

so ayun..hindi naman dahil babae ako ay normal na diretso ko maglakad :)) I love my sakang legs :))

God Bless!! >:D<

-_-

Hi blog! :D kamusta ka naman...baka inaagiw ka na sa sobrang tagal ko bago magpost..:p


grabe pagod na pagod na ko..blog...
sobrang pagod na ko...
kahit naman sinasabi kong kaya ko to (ginagawa ko pa rin naman ung mga dapat kong gawin)..
eh pwede naman siguro ako mapagod..:)


Pagod na ko, blog...:)

Lord, please give me strength..:)

The Sacrament of Waiting

Hi blog! ang tagal na ah haha anyway, uhm tinamaan talaga ko nung nabasa ko to sa blog ni Cecile haha pero hindi naman chorves haha :)) as in love in general, even for friends and family members :D

by Fr. James Donelan, S.J.

The English poet John Milton once wrote that those who serve stand and wait. I think I would go further and say that those who wait render the highest form of service. Waiting requires more discipline, more self-control and emotional maturity, more unshakeable faith in our cause, more unwavering hope in the future, more sustaining love in our hearts than all the great deeds of derring-do that go by the name of action.

Waiting is a mystery—a natural sacrament of life. There is a meaning hidden in all the times we have to wait. It must be an important mystery because there is so much waiting in our lives.

Everyday is filled with those little moments of waiting—testing our patience and our nerves, schooling us in our self-control—pasensya na lang. We wait for meals to be served, for a letter to arrive, for a friend, concerts and circuses. Our airline terminals, railway stations, and bus depots are temples of waiting filled with men and women who wait in joy for the arrival of a loved one—or wait in sadness to say goodbye and to give that last wave of hand. We wait for birthdays and vacations; we wait for Christmas. We wait for spring to come or autumn—for the rains to begin or stop.

And we wait for ourselves to grow from childhood to maturity. We wait for those inner voices that tell us when we are ready for the next step. We wait for graduation, for our first job, our first promotion. We wait for success, and recognition. We wait to grow up—to reach the stage where we make our own decision.

We cannot remove this waiting from our lives. It is part of the tapestry of living—the fabric in which the threads are woven that tell the story of our lives.

Yet the current philosophies would have us forget the need to wait. “Grab all the gusto you can get.” So reads one of America’s great beer advertisements—Get it now. Instant pleasure—instant transcendence. Don’t wait for anything. Life is short—eat, drink and be merry for tomorrow you’ll die. And so they rationalize us into accepting unlicensed and irresponsible freedom—premarital sex and extramarital affairs—they warn against attachment and commitment, against expecting anything of anybody, or allowing them to expect anything of us, against vows and promises, against duty and responsibility, against dropping any anchors in the currents of our life that will cause us to hold and to wait.

This may be the correct prescription for pleasure—but even that is fleeting and doubtful. What was it Shakespeare said about the mad pursuit of pleasure? “Past reason hunted, and once had, past reason hated.” Now if we wish to be real human beings, spirit as well as flesh, souls as well as heart, we have to learn to love someone else other than ourselves.

For most of all waiting means waiting for someone else. It is a mystery brushing by our face everyday like stray wind or a leaf falling from a tree. Anyone who has ever loved knows how much waiting goes into it, how much waiting is important for love to grow, to flourish through a lifetime.

Why is this so? Why can’t we have love right now—two years, three years, five years—and seemingly waste so much time? You might as well ask why a tree should take so long to bear fruit, the seed to flower, carbon to change into a diamond.

There is no simple answer, no more than there is to life’s demands: having to say goodbye to someone you love because either you or they have already made other commitments, or because they have to grow and find the meaning of their own lives, having yourself to leave home and loved ones to find your path. Goodbyes, like waiting, are also sacraments of our lives.

All we know is that growth—the budding, the flowering of love needs patient waiting. We have to give each other time to grow. There is no way we can make someone else truly love us or we love them, except through time. So we give each other that mysterious gift of waiting—of being present without making demands or asking rewards. There is nothing harder to do than this. It tests the depth and sincerity of our love. But there is life in the gift we give.

So lovers wait for each other until they can see things the same way, or let each other freely see things in quite different ways. What do we lose when lovers hurt each other and cannot regain the balance and intimacy of the way they were? They have to wait—in silence—but still be present to each other until the pain subsides to an ache and then only a memory, and the threads of the tapestry can be woven together again in a single love story.

What do we lose when we refuse to wait? When we try to find short cuts through life, when we try to incubate love and rush blindly and foolishly into a commitment we are neither mature nor responsible enough to assume? We lose the hope of ever truly loving or being loved. Think of all the great love stories of history and literature. Isn’t it of their very essence that they are filled with the strange but common mystery—that waiting is part of the substance, the basic fabric—against which the story of that true love is written?

How can we ever find either life of love if we are too impatient to wait for it?

aaawww..ang galing galing talaga ni Lord!! :)